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10/29/2004 03:11:09 AM
Been a long time
So I haven't written anything in a few days someone reminded me so yeah I guess I should. For those in the know the zero hour for our Halloween party is fast approaching so get your ghouls in order and get your ass to the spot on sat. nite! I just got word today from Brian, everyone's favorite former ferengi, Groth, that he is coming to town fri. And will be here on Saturday to regale us all with tales of life in NYC!!
Do you have someone special in your life? I do. Well most of the time I think so anyway. I wish I was able to read minds but I can't. I'm the type who feels things and has to speak about them, sometimes at the expense of others feelings. I have to say, though, that my self imposed Policy Of Truth has actually made most of the relationships in my life stronger. I expect my friends to be brutally honest with me and I return the honesty in kind. There are several hard truths that I face daily, I'm overweight, I have serious bouts of lazy, and I worry so much about things that I sometimes make myself sick. There are however several not so hard truths that help me every day. I'm relatively optimistic, I love my life and the friends I've been blessed with, and I am a kick ass geek with a wealth of nerd knowledge and "street cred". I value honesty a great deal. I also value love and the truth of love. I'm still not sure what love is. Sometimes I think it is that empty ache in the pit of my stomach that I feel when all I want to do Is reach out and hold someone and feel them holding on to me. I felt that closeness recently. I felt that connection and nearness of another soul caught up in the struggle , reaching out just like me for something to grasp, something that can last and be nourishing and bring me peace. I crave peace. Solace. I want to feel like everything will be ok. I want ..... Someone.
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